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Closing the Bumble Window

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Today, I write about a final goodbye to Bumble, a dating app that, like many people my age, I had once ventured into. It was some years back when a friend of mine once mentioned the app where she had met her then-fiancé. A few months later, I was alone during Eid in Germany when it occurred to me, “Why not sign up for Bumble? Let's... let's socialise!” I had little intention of finding a suitor; I was more interested in finding a buddy. That started my journey with Bumble. Some years later or, as I call it- “now”- the road with Bumble ends.  Now, after so many years, the decision to finally shut off Bumble felt both radical and necessary.  Let's dive deeper into what led me to ending it.  During those years, people in Kreis Kleve still seemed to rely mostly on meeting in person. Perhaps at Vaterstag, Karneval, community clubs, or simply through everyday social circles. Expats like me, probably on some peripheral nights when loneliness crept in, turned to such apps to ki...
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The Morning Paris Spoke to Me

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Did it ever happen to you? No matter how far you've come, how much you've achieved, or how much life you've lived, there are moments when a memory returns with an unexpected heaviness. It makes you pause, question yourself, and wonder about the person you were and the person you've become. Perhaps it happens after a loss. Perhaps while reconstructing yourself amidst the expectations of the world. Or perhaps it is simply time asking us to stop, reflect, and learn. But do we? When this happens, I close my eyes. And I go back to January 1, 2020. A café in Bastille, Paris. A winter morning and Edith Piaf playing softly somewhere from the café in the background. I had intended to spend a slow morning by myself. After changing subway lines more times than I can remember, I simply wandered around Bastille. By letting Paris charm me. It was gloomy and bitterly cold for a New Year's tourist. There were churches, street musicians, Parisian restaurants, and hurried footsteps. ...
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The Blog that Waited: Returning to Spotless Mind

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  A very quiet Friday evening, perhaps. I had just finished watching Julie & Julia (2009). As the credits were rolling, a moment of awakening struck me. It felt like a quiet invitation. An invitation to return to a blog that had been waiting for me all these years. I'd be lying if I said it was "a" moment; it is a collection of moments that have been hammering me for the last year. It was a soul's call to return to blog-writing. So, I've returned... once again. With more experiences, life stories, feelings, insights and perhaps a tiny bit of maturity. Welcoming myself again and to the readers- on Spotless Mind! Spotless Mind was left with so many memories. A memory of a teenage girl who dreamt of being a storyteller someday. Then a very different young adult life. A life in university, graduation-to-postgraduation, relocation in Europe, another postgraduation... romance, love, travel, friendship, loneliness, reclamation, the pandemic, AI, and countless moments...
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Sound of His Smile

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Every sentence;ends with a giggle.Long,short,small or big,funny or soggy;every sentence ends with a beautiful smile.Not Monalisa's unsolved smile,nor Julia Robert's glittering laugh neither an old fashioned lady's glass-bangle-tossing sound.....it's a sound of a Adam's smile which is an expressed frequency bearing mystery of dark forest, lusty sweetness of raisin & killing addiction of Cocaine.  The very first time I came across his smile the second day I communicated with him over phone.I was a very random chick for him so he en-lighted me with his GREAT smile just after asking me same old phone questions(I should refer it as Classic) How did I know him & happen to call him.There was a very unexpected question among these which is mostly asked by women which definitely surprised me and later made my Funny question of the day,was...."Why me?"Actually the question was WHY I chose to call him.My answer was not very pleasing to him(though I wa...
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Whispering Tears

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                                                                                                                            How to restart?                                                                  Can’t get any…                                                                  Still want to live again,           ...
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Juan Antonio & Few Boring Words

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To begin with this article,I want to tell few about me few years...ahem...A lot of years back in my preteen.When I thought of a life changing guy of summer who'll change my life.Many years have passed but the life changing Summer love never came and my perceptions changed.The more I grew older the more I started to forget about the Fantasies I used to have.But the hidden hope is still in me without my knowledge.Enough of me,Now the subjective discussion!(:P). Juan Antonio Gonzalez,a painter,lover,admirer & a charming persona whom any women would love to be with even the robotic ones. How is Juan Antonio?  Juan Antonio might not be someone heroic or Brad Pitt looking Greek God,but his hitting moves are better than any other guy a woman have ever faced(if she likes naughty men).He's Spanish,larger than life,a painter.He loves to be with women,hates to live alone, Casanova,kisses his woman while fighting over crucial matters,gets influenced by...
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The Guy Named : PEDANTIC

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"Ami Tomar shathe Jounota Korte chai!"(I want to have sex with you) was the most catchy phrase he said to me which caught my unconscious mind. To be frank "Jounota"(sex) is the least using word in Bengali Language as Bangladeshis are remarkably famous for their "reserved" nature. But these reserved people don't shy to express their passionate feelings in facebook and other sites by saying "Sex" or "Sexy" while watching Katrina Kaif dance moves. However, my this ordinary friend who's not so Ordinary always uses Bengali in every sentence as much as he can, even the hard & unused words sometimes. Writing about him might be a cause of curiosity for you(the reader) & obviously my "subjective" friend. But the reason I'm writing about him is that, he is the first one to tell me that I have great potentials to rule the world. At that time, I certainly was...amazed or fluttered to hear that. He also added that A...
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